Lonely

I still remember that day,
That day I felt I had found the one,
The one I loved, the one I cared for,
Days seemed so happy,
I had forgotten my past,
The nightmares gone,
Her dreams ruling my mind,
I could feel my life change,
A change after so long, a change for good,
A few days passed,
I could feel it slipping away,
And the day came again,
When she said she wanted it no more,
A heavy hammer on my heart,
I said okay with a smiling face,
But I had a heavy heart.

Since then my life has changed again,
Nightmares, have come again,
And I realise that it was always meant to be this,
I was never made to love, or to be loved,
And I learnt to live that way.

I went back to who I was,
Before I met her,
And life is mechanical again,
But I have become used to this,
I know my books would never part,
Or leave me with a hard heart.

Now I try to delete all the memories,
Its difficult, as they are lovely,
But I console my heart saying,
That I am meant to be lonely.

- By Ayush Goyal